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without doubt, you make me spin (:

'cause in my head
are memories of nobody
and nobody alone

is the only one i yearn to see

haha, tricked ya (:
sorry i've moved.
cheers babe. have fun reading these past entries though.. eonss ago.
dusty and all that. love-

12:23 AM
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26 july 2006. that was when i left you, without a kiss of goodbye, into the wide wide world and got lost. in the sea of people and relationships.
i come back, cos i needed to shout, to talk, to think.
i have been through so much.. so much. i lost some, i made some, and i really grew.
its family problems, schoolwork, friendship problems, relationship problems, all in a huge washing machine spinning spinning.. and i tell you. this lousy brand sucks, cos i still can't wash my dirty laundry clean.

love and peace.

looking back, i really regretted being so proud and heartless. i regretted all the chances that i have missed out on, and i wish to pave something good out of whats left. let me shine. let me grow into a new person, let me take the chances, let me believe again. believe again in all things good and hopeful. GO GEOK! i can do it. BUCK UP! face it all with a big smile. CHEER UP! your friends are marching with you. LIGHTEN UP! god's watching, we are listening, what goes up must come down, so.. loosen up!..
whee..

geok =D geok =D geok geok =D

5:22 PM
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Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
And the dreams that you dream of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dream of, dreams really do come true
Someday I'll wish upon a star, wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops is where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly And the dreams that you dare to, oh why, oh why can't I?
Well I see trees of green and red roses too,
I'll watch then bloom for me and you
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Well I see skies of blue and I see clouds of white and the brightness of day
I like the dark and I think to myself, what a wonderful world
The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky are also on the faces of people passing by I see friends shaking hands saying,
How do you do?
They're really saying,
I, I love you I hear babies cry and I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more than we'll know And I think to myself, what a wonderful world Someday I'll wish upon a star, wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops is where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
And the dreams that you dare to, oh why, oh why can't I?

12:05 PM
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the phuket experience!
my beach was patong. my friends were johnny, jane and jessie. i was jamie.
i had 4 boyfriends and 1 beach slipper 1 england jersey and, very almost, a germany jersey.
my restaurant was the newspaper and a buffet that was almost 150baht.
i loved the waters, the beach chair with the blue gym mat.
my getaway was island safari, thailand. my guide was 22 year old, and i drank white waters for close to 40 minutes. my boat was a sparkling yellow, my helmet a luscious red. my paddle a trusty black, which carried me down the rapid waters!
we raced manually, occassionally sliding down difficult S bends. it was a zoom zoom and many near misses. my road was a pebbly mud track, which my toyota disliked. it was clunking and johnny nearly lost his heart.
my roomate was jane. jane was breakfast and cotton buds, 6 facial creams and 1 hair conditioner. breakfast kept her going. we were green tops and red puma bags. my puma was a 350 baht, and 680 baht earrings irks me.
we were beautiful, and received invitation from lounges and a cafe/bar, The Port. we danced and sing and played the piano. johnny was a piano genius, jane a singing sensation, jessie and me crazy pineapples.
my most hated fruit was pineapples. it was so sweet and succulently yellow.
my 3 nights were living in royal paradise, but agogo-boys mar my picture perfect vision. they were prettier and dressier than me. makes me jealous.
my best was jessie. we were crazy pumpkins. we were 300 photos and full SD cards. we were eye-catching bees and happy tourists. she was two bikinis, i was two maggie mees.
to jane's delight, we rode elephants. my elephant was tou-lok! he is 27, dashing and hungry for vegetation!
my taxi driver was peepat. my salvation. we had a jet and a tiger, and we swam and flew, we took a long way down.
i had 5 alarms, and a queen-size bed, and not enough sleep. we were fined two hundred and twenty two sing-dollars. each.
jessie was an ATV wonder, she was "right behind" us. thank god her favourite side was intact.
our favourite side is always left, which took us on a mountain journey. we frequented mountains.
we envisioned many career prospects. we were almost rich.
we were there. my place was phuket, my people thai.
i loved my travel buddies! :)

10:22 PM
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this song, it can tear u up from inside.
try!

gabriel --- lamb

i can fly
but I want his wings
i can shine even in the darkness
but I crave the light that he brings
revel in the songs that he sings
my angel gabriel
i can lovebut I need his heart
i am strong even on my own
but from him I never want to part
he's been there since the very start
my angel gabrielmy angel gabriel
bless the day he came to be
angel's wings carried him to me
heavenly
i can fly
but I want his wings
i can shine even in the darkness
but I crave the light that he brings
revel in the songs that he sings
my angel gabriel

7:47 PM
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lol.. today went to teach lex chem.. i think i went crazy
i was completely out of point, the 2 nights of stayovers r getting to me!!!
stuff's happening.. im suddenly so happy.. cos "houki boshi" is playing n im thinking of abarai renji n his tomato red hair
lol.. eek, why do i sound sick.
neways im determined to turn up for the next overseas trip! whatever comes! with odac again. jus read the tag board.
qi n nette visited!!!! how sweeet!!!!
wait lemme dump the lyrics of bouki boshi here
forget it.
its all.. uhhh. i cant read it. =x

7:34 PM
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i feel so edgy.
i hate it im so happy sometimes and now im jus so lonely and sad.
i think im really going mad, n i dunno y. maybe its cos tung aint back yet, but still i feel so... RARRR
i cant stand it im going high low high low its irritating i cant stand it.
im going to ntu.. i dunno if i should ilke HURRAY or ZZZ... i dunno.. but least i got jacq wimme!! yay!!! lol. see im happy again. i think im really mad.
yesterday went back to vj. it was crazy. i missed it so much its aching inside the room the wooden tables the disgustingly dirty shelves and all that junk even the roll of toilet paper got me aching inside out. its nuts, i wanna b back there, i want all of them here and i need!!! to get sane.
anyway im so happy this hols cos its like i found my best fren again!!!! I missed you jacq!!!! lol... ure still so funky and silly as ever, and i jus need u around meeeeeeeeeee..... what with mummy getting me clawing up the wall. anyway kel's looking loads happier these days im so glad!!!! what a change, my lil bro, Mr Dance President. lol. nutty!!!
o ya.. im intensely jealous.. imissed so many fun fun times in odac, sometimes i wonder if i ever turned up for anything!!! looking at their penang and kota n olc04 n crap. i feel like crap.
im incoherent. my grammar n stuff, going haywire. sigh.
anyway its so ... i dunno what to say. every hols tung's away, i think its better off if he went to ns, its been 4-5mths since i last saw him... at least if he were in ns ill see him every week! sigh. but its nice to hear hes ok back there.. guess his parents missed him loads!!!
i haf to go. mmmm.
anyway nice songs again!!!!

gabriel, lamb (jacq's gonna b so happy!)
where'd u go, fort minor
jimmy gets high, daniel powter (did i spell it right)
houki boshi, bleach (dunno the band..)
life is like a boat, bleach (dunno the band.. again!)

this is the playlist for this season.. at least for the seasons in my world. lol.

10:19 AM
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utnung if youre online i cant go on msn cos my msn is stuckihs. i cant email u cos hotmail is down. i cant post it on our blog cos our blog is down n i cant call because. ya u know it -.-
anyway i asked jac to email ya so i hope u will come to my blog!!!! (tahts so unlikely...) so yar. "keeping you informed" ya? lol byebye.
n i wish i was going to penang n i wish that YIA said hi n i wished i was going to penang. =(

10:51 PM
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life is so difficult sometimes. sometimes you just wish to breakdown and cry.
sometimes you just want to leave it to someone else.
sometimes you just cease to respond to all the sadness. sometimes you just freeze up and stop. altogether.
but others you lean on your friends and family, you just dont fall. we just must live on, cos God is watching over us. you love us. i will not be beatened down! i will be strong cos you love us. and because i haf kel, tung, jacq and everyone else so wonderful!
great =) great great great! im gonna be happy, no matter what. im gonna go!

8:18 PM
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i shouldnt be sad. i mustnt be sad. im so strung up, all these tension.
i shouldnt weaken. thank you! lili! for that wonderful message.
i shouldnt give up. im gonna be okay. im gonna be strong, im gonnna be alright.
i shouldnt

8:09 PM
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hai!
ABAARRAAAAIIII RRREEENNJII!!!!!

hahahahhas! hahahas. haha! the plot is thickening!! thats good. thickening is always good. like sticky porridge, they are thick too. or endometrium lining of the uterus??? oo. im all bio-crazy. makes me a bio hazard! hoo. anyway bleach is really hot now cos so many factors are coming to play and abarai renji is breaking his dormancy already! yay! its gonna be so action packed. o, kel just left for perth this morning. gone for a week! what a drag. lalallalalalalala.... ill go back n watch it a few more times! ahhas. buhbuais bloggie!

7:12 PM
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i thought my previous entry sounded mad.
anyway listen to this:
james blunt --- you're beautiful.
because you are :)

9:36 PM
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hihi bloggy! im goin gofr prom, again!!!! yay. all my odac frens n classmates are going. woop! i cant wait for this all to be over. smallville is playing. am watching only cos there's nothing else to do! kel's homey. mummy's still working, missed her! today i shopped till i dropped. its not a nice feeling. its really sick n tiring. got all the bday prezzies. sucks, spent a bomb! argh! anyway. i cant wait for prom! this means everythign is over. then we can all enjoy the sunny days: going out with jac, odac, class and lalala! yay! meanwhile, As are coming. its ok! gogo geok! we can do it! we can we can we can! sigh. kel needs the comp again. hes always "doing projects" and "homework" well i dun see it, sea slug! argh. nvm. mummy's coming home with dinner dinner dinner! smallville is going really lame cos i can hear banging n wooping. bore-ring. i cant wait for monday. america's next top model! cant wait for wed. charm! cant wait for sunday sunday! untung and gilmore girls! wahahhaha. i miss desperate housewives. *sobs!* bimbo?!!!! no! but desperate housewive's really good. the narration, the extensive plot, u fresh new point of views, the camera, effects and all that jest (sounds like choy!) its all so. addictive. like chocolate! wohohoho! i wish i got a golden ticket too! woopee! ill be the happiest bucket in the whole wide world. hahs. and yeah! end of As spell another thing: endless, timeless, free, luxurious days ahead pouring, analysing, savouring, simmering in this sunny-sweet fantasy of harry potter. all.
mine.
mine alone.
Hhahhahahahahhahaha.... (cackles of an evil witch)
die, old hag! die! i cant wait potty! i cant wait! ahhhh. its the PPs.
Prom n Potter. woohoo!

9:17 PM
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hi. anyone who wants to have nydc pls contact me. cos i haf heaps of nydc coupons n im expected to live on nydc till feb2006 ahhh!!!! mabbe we can haf an odac outing to nydc. with those aliens with XL mouth attached to their heads i think boom! there goes all my coupons. anyway mummy is nuts! forty bucks on that nydc coop. eee.

5:01 PM
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hey! i jus repainted my toenails. nice, yogurt colour! no one likes it though. but i still like rum and raisin, no matter what evelyn said. hahas! o yah, gummies are nice. im so pointless. anyway did u see that guy who tagged? he came across my blog when he was researching on choco addiction! wahahahhaha! cute. that explains y im getting fatter! i tried 2 run but its like, salmon swimming upstream. cast myself into the water n die! die! die! i just cant bring myself to run. i wonder how As will be. i jus cant wait for all these to be over then we can all stop pretending that all we wanted was to wear thick specs read thick books n conk information into our thick heads. nope! i think im delirious. im jus typing nonsense. o watched charm last night. read harry potter! ahh!! i have been reading and rereading n reading n rereading! like, i think for the fourteenth time. im gearing myself up for the new book! (*.*) its got something to do with snape, that i know. "advanced potion making". sigh, its so childish but i wish and wish that our syllabus was a bit magical. hahs, then we can swish and flick! n make colourful coke in cauldrons. maybe fight weird looking creatures. then we will have a forest outside our school and giant calamari in the sparkling lake. yep! we will have seafood galore every first monday of the month or something. hahs, joking. no more gummy :( lalalalalaaaa. noone's at home :( means noone's gonna cook dinner, again! bother. ill eat cables. fables. kel's really funny, he has to do this lit review or something and the task is to write a fairytale. so he dug out all the junk we used to have, like pinocchio dumbo, sleeping beauty and blah! i wanna find the cd which has the story of the paperback princess! its reallly cute! u can like, make the com read to you. then theres this dragon which roared really relistically. i cant find it! :( and the princess looks really stupid in this bk takewaway paperback. sweet. her hair was gold. its nice having the house to yourself. hmmm, but i wish someone will cook dinner :( hahas. okay. bloggy *hugs*

4:04 PM
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************sweet child o'mine******************
guns and roses
She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds meof a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Sweet child o' mine

6:01 PM
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yo blog so much's been happening since i last blogged u, which was centuries ago. it is a monday, n i have only jus returned home, after managing to elude the desire to stayback late in the odac room (for the first time). i dunno whats with the odac room, but i jus cant enough of it. ill rot my time away n gabble nonsense to my fellow "roommates" till its time for tuts lects or home. i think we should b called the PSC. ponstarclub. cos, seriously, we r such big fat slackers. but i love u guys( if u r reading it!), or them guys(if ure not) loads n loads.ever since the year started, sth's been going on, n i jus started talking 2 jl, sq, el, lc, ls, jp, se, zy, kp, sh, zq n blah blah, n we started stinking up the odac room day n night. there are broken things, new things, paperwork, ropes, ponchos, birthdays (se hc), lost pens, never found pe tees, illegal balls, cob webby cubes tys tys tys! it's like welfare room's living hell. everything speak of memories. i can nv imagine how we stashed so much junk into this gigantic broom closet n yet still managed to fit the 28 of us in, esp during meetings for camps n stuff.after intense lotr read, i conclude that odac room is jus like the shire. hahs, sounds so cheesy, but really.u can go there to recharge after a long freaked up day of lessons.... choosing to crap (like what lc would do) or play guitar (like zy does) or knock out (like only se does) n its so protected from the boredom n monotony of veejaycee.n we have our very own legends n traditions and ponstar lifestyles to maintain... like. keep a slimy distance. use "nimmonkey" like fullstops.be kind to animals.i think our national flower is the fungus.n our anthem the olc song.or mabbe our remix!!! hahs. its jus so much fun.times in olc, that camp was mind blowing n spirit-glueing.odac has never felt so together before.n our loggie...so messy yet cheesy......i dunno i dunno. its jus so many things to talk about, n i dunno where to start or where now to end. its jus so much like back in stnicks when guides was my lifesaver.i think im nuts.hahs.... like im supposed to say "i think im like so gonna be nuts" boo!im feeling bit lost now. nvm, its a funny tale, telling about odac, u never know until ure into it.

5:15 PM
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hey tung.
today was really pretty fun!
first i met up with liyana to go for the camp, n i came late again! (><) iw as all jittery as to wat the turn out of the camp would be like. cos im so scared ill screw up. ok. anyway, we started, n remember that NIE guy i told u about? im quite nervous working with him cos hes really old n stuff, so i thought he will think me real childish! anw our tcher is an experienced one, im so glad to have him ard. hahs. but it turned out the NIE guy is pretty funny and very responsible too. so we started off the day with boring ice breakers! like totally boring, the kids were all distracted n stuff, i thought it was a really bad start. but when we first moved on with the 1st expt, i was so happy! even tho we din haf enuff: paint, brushes, colours, scissors, i had lotsa fun rushing around catering to every single kid, teaching them stuff and helping them wif their colours. but mostly, im running around cos there are not enough materials. i haf to borrow off protractors and colours from various odd classes! gee. anw tea break was cute, hahs, tho the food was pretty horrid. then we had the molecules part, i thought it was pretty interesting, to hear p4 n p5 kids rattling off physics! hahs, its so cheesy. anyway u should see the methane molqz they came up with! all square planar one, no 3D idaes at all.n we had to reteach the entire part. o then comes lunch, n i was in charge of guiding the duty kids to lay the table for hte rest. its reallyr eally fun, like pouring drinks after drinks, laying food packets n cutlery. i think the kids enjoyed themselves too. i love talking to them. they are all so cute! n eunice is a babe in the making, shes so sweet! hahs. after lunch was the jet boat thing.....which was a saliva, messy, colouring, balloony affair! colourful though. then tea again....n this time the tea is really nice! curry puffs or something. btw the lunch was so much that only 2 kids managed to completely finish their meal. lol! the funnest part of the day has to be the last activity, which is a game i suggested! hahs, next time i tell you k? its really fun! i was screaming n the kids were screaming an cheering and they really really loved the game, so much that they din realise the winning team did not get any pts at all. ooops. anyway the best camper of the day is jerry and he is really sweet a guy. he is so dilligent and he plays well too! i love him, hes totally a model student helpful, work hard, play hard, and participates in teamwork. wow! anw tung how was ur day wif zh at indon? i bet u guys haf lotsa fun. sheesh....daryl jus got back from bali, n i have proposal to do still for b2b. im so tired. n sean jus kopped our land ex idea. hell!! missing you so much. btw after my camp i met up with jac n her sis. ya know her sis got approached by 2 modelling agencies jus walking on orchard!? hahs. shes getting more beautiful! we were out prom dress hunting n she looks stunning in those sleazy dresses. sleek! u should see. anw daniel dyed his hair n she hi-lighted hers too. nice i guess. hahs. jac loves her white flats, n all girls present agreed it looks fab on her. jac had a cel party after drama anw.miss you loads!!! haf fun wif zh k? n susan!lol. tell me all bout it. blog too ya? cya soon!


10:22 PM
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hey, at the comp lab waitin fer odac meetin to start.
odac's taxing man. after guides im calling quits i dunno what im doing in odac but OWeeLlllllllllllll. like i chose to enter vj i got into odac n jus haf to do sth about it. bleahs! anw, promos' landing i thot it was no big deal till i realised today's 23august! time flies! i swear i had no idea its this late. god.... n my subby's gettin nowhere...i think larry is right. lol my dearest gp teacher? he says what ultimately build u are arts subjects. cos, like, outta 3ple sci cohort, only less tha 50% enters med fac. so doing 3ple now might end up being hte waste of ur time cos in the future, u mite not even use the phjy, bio or chem knowledge! n lifeskills like literature and stuff r wat u really need in surviving in this world. came down like a wham! reality check. im in the wrong palce a the wrong time. n i haf no idea wat i wanna do in the future. pressure comes from all 4 sides telling me to decide, cast ur votes, set ur heart, i cant do it! argh. anw, movies r lousy these days n i jus haf no mood for no nothing. crap. anw gtg, im literally late. i hate PEARLS.


4:50 PM
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hey bloggy!im at vjc now...might not b great shakes, this place, but hey, its been so cute. ive been going ard for so many funny courses, like life saving, rock climbing, kayaking...its been busy. i dun really like it, but it has its benefits. sigh. o yes!!!!!!!! lets talk about sth happier!!!!!!
day after tomorrow. surprisingly good! i really love sam, n the fact that the show is straight forward and touching...no mushy lines or soggy scenes, but its really fine.cried so many times during the show, its really really good. sigh. dam good!lala....hahs, i still miss stnicks terribly. nothing, nothing compared to the good old days. but, o well.

8:03 PM
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hey! yo bloggy. freakign sitting in the comp lab now. wif yvonnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. stupid her, play neopets n nv tell me the time. n we missed bio lect bcos of that!! grace, if ure reding this, look at ur irresponsible former klsmate! :P:P anw, its so boring. n i had 2 dizzy spells. like, wow. so sad. o....ten minutes to start of lessons. this day's gonna end soon.hang in tehre. yeah.all the junk. these days, songs' r lke trash. nothing new, everything old, ragged n sad. owell. i miss jac!! n stnicks!!!! -sulks- untung's really nice tho.hahx. uncle tung!! oo....hols n spas n napfas. all the gore. ah! gore, van helsing's really good.n i watched shrek again! so cheesy. the stupid donkey mistaking the moon for a star. lol! cheesy cheesy. anw, gtg, vjc sch comps r really really slOW.

2:52 PM
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ah!!!!!! the project work, projectile motion, kientic theory, kinematics, dynamics, oscillations, chemical/ionic equilibriums, thermochemistry is all getting to me!!!!!
buried six feet deep into tutorials. Rest In Peace. gawd!!!!!!!!!! *cries* help...frap crap crap. i still have time for spongebob square pants. n 50first dates.....sweetest thing. u shld all catch it!!!! coming attractions and should watchs:
starsky and hutch, scooby doo2, shrek2, harrypotter,van helsing, 50first dates.

9:40 PM
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********avril lavigne, things ill enver say************
I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head

[Pre-Chorus]
[cause] I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

[Chorus]
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say i wanna blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If it ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say

[Pre-Chorus]

Yes I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say i wanna blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say

8:18 PM
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do i ever cross your mind, in the warm sunshine?
isnt this line sweet?(its not the way i write it, more like the way they sing it!) and this song too. classical rnb love song. this song is really great. comes into mind a
prince charming,
lights, camera, action.
love, romance, candles, roses, red, pink, purple.
glam.
rich gowns, tall shoes, beautiful high ceiling halls, sparkling chandelier. beautiful.
*sigh* little girl's fantasy. nothing's too big for my head. hahs. everyone should take time off to dream.

8:12 PM
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***********girl on tv, LFO**********

Oooh,Yeahhhh,I'm wishin' on a fallin' star,
wonderin' where you are....I wish...

[Chorus]

I wish for you on a fallin' star,wonderin'
where you are,do I ever cross your mind,In
the warm sunshine,she's from the city of angels,like
Betty Davis,James Dean,and Gable,never know
what she means to me.I fell for the girl that's on TV.

[Verse 1]

Met her at a counter affair,she wore a green dress,and
everybody was there,felt out of place till she looked
into my eyes.Shook your hand around 9 P.M. about
never gonna be the same again.Never had to
be on a movie screen to be the leading lady
in all my dreams...
Shooby-doo-wop,and scobby snacks,met a fly girl
and i can't relax,the only problem is she's
a movie star,Oh,my friends,they won't believe me,if
they could only see me,at the risk of sounding
cheesy,i think i fell for the girl on TV.

[Repeat Chorus]

[Verse 2]

Everybody knows her name,Wanna take a picture and
their glad she came,But I just want to be there when
she's down,down(Be there when she's down)
I don't want her autograph,I just want to call her up
and make her laugh,Never had to be on a movie
screen,To be the leading lady in all my dreams.
Shooby doo-wap & scooby snacks,
I Met a fly girl and I can't relax
The only problem is she's a movie star,
Oh,My friends they won't believe me
If they could only see me,At the risk of sounding
cheezy,I think I fell for the girl on TV.

[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]

I'm wishin' on a star....and wonderin' where you are
Do i cross your mind??In the warm sunshine???

[rap]
Yeah,So I wish for you on a bright shining star,
Every where I look there you are,There you are
It's the girl in the green dress,
She took my breath away,And now I look to the sky,
For a better day,To the beach shore and scooby snacks,
I met a fly girl and I can't relax,
Never had to be on a movie screen
Cause she's the leading lady in all my dreams,I wish

[Repeat Chorus]

8:00 PM
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nice layout? this is following the design of my private blog. hahs. i love chocolates, dont you? minty, sweet, but not bitter ones. what exculsive preference.

4:45 PM
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wow....time really flies huh!!! what a huge hop(flop?) from rj to vj.
well. im so sick of people asking me the same question: why do you wanan go to vj???
n its lyk the first impression is that i cudnt make it back(nice try) and then the second one after my explanation will be ure nuts(well done)
what can i do to get you there~ hahx. corrs. i miss their songs...speaking songs, im alienated. o wait! wait! wait!
new radicals --- mother we just cant get enough.
that song is is fabulous man. sigh. im so tired of school work. i jus did a like, work spree or do u call it that? today! im house-ridden. my damned body keep getting sick. flu, fever, cough, crap, nausea, what sort of life is this? i never got sick so often before. whats wrong? nostalgia... stnicks!!!! aHHHh! the easy secondary school work. -bitter laugh- what the.
lately...been coming home real early, no after school shopping. sch uni's okay i guess, but nothing compared to the rj's white and green, i gotta admit. but still, not complaining. you should see the hcjc one. hahx. mudpie man! o!!!! talking about desserts. waffles! gelare waffles!! they r really really good. what do i say. excellent. fabulous. totally. *sighs* anyway, tung n me's fine, nothing much. hope he'll be okay day by day. jac! hahx...that woman. im so sad that i didnt go to acjc with her. but its really good here at vj too. im starting to get used to it. but no matter, sn's still the best. bestest. hmm.its been like. wow. two months since my last entry...so much, so much has changed. im still the same old me. lala....might be chopping my hair again. wth, i jus like changes. hahs! i really think im gonna cut it damn short, for the looks of it. lalala...i will still have the rest of my life to get it longer. hehe.
in the two months ive watched scooby twice, butterfly effect twice, the prince and me once, n f*king eye2 once. that show is totally immoral. not being too geographic, but it might induce falling birth rate, seriously ageing population, and unnnaturally high level of abortion. totally! n the best part is that it has TOTALLY NO PLOT.BRILLIANT.what sort of screwed up pre-teen-mentality severely-deprived of a director will film up such a hollow, senseless, logically-DETACHED movie? and what the f*K was i thinking when i actually agreed under persuasion to watch this freaking movie? on a sunday too. im outta my mind. no wonder i screwed up my english os.
soleilas. "take everything in your stride". all the memories of rj. i put them in boxes after boxes and shelved them up.deep into the corners of my heart. but sometimes, a little shakened, boxes after boxes tumble down and looking at the spilled contents, i wonder how did i ever get here. its so long ago. but its okay, ill be alright...hahx.
vj mass dances r really cute too!!! seriously seriously. hahx. n yeah, i hope everyone turns up for the vj food n fun fair!! hahas. its gonna be cool =)

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merry thinking day to all! sorry that im not free to meet u guys at the stadium....

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hey!!1 acjc fun o rama!!!!!
finally thinkgs r picking up, from the dump-days mug heard play lil bad luck a-piling we haf the fun time!!!!!!!! ah mel's bdae. lol cheesy! okok....anyway.
rj is freaking mug.
freaking mug!!!!
hear that? so sick..........(><) buti still love the peeps in rj...they r dam sweet.....*sigh* hahs. yeah.....sch's lyk that. sleep in lectures. chat during math n bio lects. n slack. n jus whatever?! mmm. id unno if i can still make it back into rj even after resuts r out. what a shag. its gonna b out only next week! sick right? sigh...i really love rj n vj alot. what should i do? tell me! -poke bloggy- love ya. mummy's bdae today!!!!!!!!!!!
HaPpY bdaE muMmY!

she loves the earring! yAY!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!
thanks untung!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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this sunday's class gathering!!!!!!!!!!!! four truth!!! how sweet!!!!! ill miss all of them.....like lili!!!!1 long time no see!!! aHHHHhhhhh...this is so sweet.....ahhhh..i cant wait...i miss stnicks!!!!!!!!!!!!1 n after not going 2 school fer 2days, i miss chinese food stall stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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i jus lost desarest tung's 600bucks digi cam, bout 10minuts or so after i got it. im so f*ked up, okay. its 600. i told my parents...was crying. they said its okay, they were dam sweet!!!!!!!! -hugs them- its jus like, i feel so remoseful. we r lyk, not remotely rich, so 600bucks a digi cam is one huge sum to pay up man!!!! freak it...sigh. sigh!!!!! im so screwed. i hate this. i hate this!!!!!!
hey...but im so alright njow.
hes dam sweet..he said its okay, he said take my time to repay it, n he doesnt mind..thanks so much tung! -hugs u- hahs.
im so so soglad..... n jac was raelly sweet too.....she was comforting me always, n cared not to bring up the issue......surprise. i bought a real nice black jacket wif tung!! we have the same design. lol. its dam cool, dam cheap. jussa 23 fer sucha cool thing. hooray!!!!! =)

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ah.....all of a sudden, it feels so much ly a godsent gift to see a sec4'03 stnicks girls running ard town jus cant help but 2 stop n talk..ah...it sall so sweet.....hmmm. what a major difference from the complete take-for-granted attitude. owell.
in case, u guys dunno, im not being desperate like asking for guys 2 pick me up, its jussa song lyric.. blink182- down. shld try new blink cd, real good tracks! feeling this, without you, always.....wow!!! (*.*)

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paint my sky a royal purple.


9:39 PM
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rj is cool, but really.
must u guys all STuDY? is that so CrUciaL? telll me its not, relieve me of my nightmares. study? mug?? life??? where?! i cant understand you guys.....c'mon...u gotta jus loosen up!!
lolx. shld i become a venture? spinning spinning. jaycee life aint as lax i would have thought. dam. i feel like screaming. give me a holiday. peeps in rj's cool though.
jus a lil Muggish.

9:37 PM
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i close my eyes when i get too sad. i'd think thoughts that i know r bad. i close my eyes n i count to ten. hope its over when i open them. i want the things that i had before like a starwars poster on my bedroom door. i wish i could count to ten and make everything be wonderful again.
::everclear,wonderful::

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hahas......patrol outing was gr8!!!!!!!!neoprint machine was cranky.lunch was..long n eventful. bit eggy on the other side of the table...lol!
anw.....jus hope that whoever reading my blog will pls do a favour by sending a reminder 2 my patrolmates..tell em to get onto the blog thing....lol!
n yeah...ahhhhhhhhhh. so glad we had a patrol outing.... hahas. okok.
mmmm......sch's starting this friday. wth.
mosh04. shld i go?

mabbe i'll jus give it a miss.good idea?dunno....

sch's gonna b kinda terrible aint it.......hey, to all the sec4s newbies...gambatte!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahx. wth, sorta early huh? =PPPpPPpp

_{[hoping that rjc wun turn out to be a drag....]}

9:10 AM
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i jus got into rjc. does it matter?
fine, im seriously kjinda glad i got in. never in my wildest dream. wow. im not going vj, despite everyone else's indignant "8 pts? rj? nah..i'll see u in vj fer sure"
i outlived them again....yet again, ive proven them wrong..so what???? im so depressed. anger.

okay, so it does. but rjc vjc wth they're all the same. o yah. right. rj. great. mabbe im gonna experience a hefty fall later.
god...are you listening to me.....got my prayer? please...god....i beg of you.

-i close my eyes when i get too sad-

9:34 AM
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gotta job! at sum freaking mr bean's cafe......real cool peeps working htere, jus that sum's a lil over enthu bout new staff....haha..gee.
anyway, postings r due real soon...pray hard? not really worried....jus sianned......
ok, i jus hope ill make tons of good new frens in jaycee. ahha...:D:D cheerio!

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its only two weeks to prelims....honestly i just don't feel the push, and thats probably because i'm so thick-skinned. gosh! its so sick...i'm studying only because i don't want to be left out...bitch right? yeah, at this point of time, life's a bitch!
chill, everyone, give your best shot, and may we see each other again in top five!
cheers.

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farewell....

today we stayed back at the forum...rehearsing for the item...
and i think back on all the stupid times we had together.
what with all the nonsenical dance choreographed by me...
the fact that we had the cheek to perform them...we were so stupid! i feel like laughing and crying when i admit that. serious. i love you guides...its like, yeah, there are people i really don't like. there are people whom i gradually get to like...in all....stnicholasgirlguides gave me so much...i'm stuttered...i dunno what to say. its like. my four years of memories are all tinted with guides' event...east coast enrolment...marking the field with hiang kiat and sijia...sijia crying in the den....the times we stayed back in school to do the gateway....the times we were at the computer lab with annabel and jade by my side...laughing and playing as we work alongside.
during campfires, the anxiety we shared before our item....us shrieking in delight when we heard that we won!! the sec one orientation campfire....us in our guides uniform, checking each other....tensed up and nervy....in campfire site...the troubles, the proposals....getting the materials....the sodium, magnesium, whatever! powder to make the fires change in colour...the times we stayed back to get screamed by gwee....camping...in school. i feel like crying. and we were in our tent....our cheers...we were talking in the tent...i was with my fellow sec fours...we braved the "music" and the pain and hardships together....the resentments towards each other....
we went to denmark...me and grace quarreling...us crying....me apologising first time ever in my life out of singapore....
and me and veron quarreled about rice or chalk dust in the bottles....oh man.... sheesh
the times we said "ok, lets go. what are you guys waiting for?.....yeah...i'm damn tired. but hey, what can we do right...we'll have to get it done eventually" i wanna cry! all the times i spend in guides....how hard i pushed myself to do the most disgusting things, those i really don't wanna do...the time i drifted from guides, how miserable....i cried over the phone to apologise to renhui...all charles' distractions....me and sandra drifting...me and gwen crying....
ms gwee....testing my campfire site.... purposely blowing off my lit match sticks time after time....just to make me learn that it will never work...i'm so hurt, i'm so so hurt....i'm so glad...she is part of my memories.... the catholic high campfire....an abject failure...i was torn....the acs(i) campfire and sji campfire....i was so over the moon...i love you....felicia, for giving me the memories....and the people we stayed back to do dance practices....the times when i had to choreograph the dance myself, we learnt it together....i danced so well...i always feel that everything's right, when i move in the music...=) with you...with you...with you guides....you guys make me whole....i can dance when i'm with you guys....lols.....how "niang" iw as in sec1....a fresh dancer-gymnast...now polished and cut into a fine piece of Girl GUide....hahas...that i lost all my "niang manners" like how you guys liked to remind me.... "they way you hold the spoon.....and the way you eat...and the way you walk and pick up dropped things...as if you're dancing!" hahas...i can never express my initial surprise in words when i first heard that as we dined together in the canteen.......the breaktimes...we would sit at the canteen wishing we were donning anything but our guides uniform.....lols......times i hugged you guys....sports day...crrying all the accursed boxes of drinks....2-3 boxes per girl....we were real "men" at that times...lols! i mean, look at us! lols.....and at night, we sang and danced and goofed around....shake it, baby!! =pPPp fun....fun to the max.....i could spin and jump till i lost all senses....we lost ourselves in a sea of laughter and music...we sat together, in an unorangised cluster, and sang the latest favourite songs of anyone...we saw each other on corridors and we'd groan "guides! and XxX test! again! stupid! COH after meeting...sigh!" and we'd sit and in our elephant-thick skin on which criticisms from gwee just bounce off our thick skulls, and us doodling with our pencils listlessly... we yawned, sighed, laid back on our chairs during guides meetings....talking about the latest bands, events, hottest school gossips.... did you see my badge, did you see my belt.......during camps....plus we lost god knows how many pencils, rules, erasers, pants, shirts, towels, specs, shampoo, combs, socks and shoes we lost! it was a disaster....we hated camp, cause that means we would have to "donate" items to the school....and we'd never get them back! hellish! lols.....and the times...what the hell....lols....we talked about the most crazy and sick stuff, i really dunno thats us! sick people among us...my god! lols....
-sigh-
as i selected the farewell prezzie....i can't help but feel liberated...
but sitting down here, listing everything out....its so crazy...
i can't convey the spirit through words, i'm not good enough. i want to make all of you, whoever that chanced on this blog, feel, what i'm feeling....i may not be good at it....but...i really want you to experience it.....it feels so good....so whole...so complete...thats like.....friendship. god, friendship is sucha corny word to use! lols...i mean, the word has been woven so many times, its lost its essence...what can i say. i want to tell you, is that in your area of work, put in your best. drown yourself....what you get is that. yes, all that above. anyone that can recall all the experience....thats a truly lucky, blessed person...i'm one of them!

st nicholas girl guides
you girls will always be a part of me...i love you. truly.

8:50 PM
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What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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9:38 PM
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haha! check tiz out! its sooooo coooorrrnnnnnnyyyyy :D:D

9:33 PM
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hohoho...
realise its been ages since i last blogged!!!! anyway, looks spacey...i mean. the blog. lols! oh yah....okay okay. cheery.
hey anyone holding on to huijing's blog or sth? if she has one...give it 2 me yeah, okay? mmm...meawhile i feel Accomplished. having had a go at the homework and well, actually doing them for quite a fair bit...i feel great man! i'm good! (n_n) ahhas...cheery....so yah! its been quizzing n everything...picked dat up froz moi fren'z bloggy...yeah it is crap, but i was bored, so quit condemning me! (><") mmmm...btw, *great* hols huh.... jus *can't wait* for school to start...
oh yah! harry potter's Super....its damn cooll....jus finsihed it...gonna do the 2nd round man....

9:21 PM
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In the past life you were a: Cabaret Dancer

Your prime year was: 1937

Your age at this time was: 22

No one can deny that you love to dance! Your entertaining,passionate nature stems from your career as a late night cabaret dancer in 1937.You live an industrious,highly energized and hard working life.Your age,22,shows that you were born in the year 1915.

What was your career in the past life?


You are a: RUBY

Your crimson red color and this July birthstone is a sign of passion and ambition.
What gemstone are you?


Which '70s Disco Hit Are You?

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You are a: RUBY

Your crimson red color and this July birthstone is a sign of passion and ambition.
What gemstone are you?

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Sunday, June 15, 2003

beautiful, huh?

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Friday, June 13, 2003

saying i love you
is not the words i want to hear from you
its not that i want to
not to say but if you only knew
how easy
it would be to show me how you feel
more than words is all you have to do to make it real
than you wouldn't have to say that you love me
cos i'd already know

+bridge+
what would you do if my heart was torn in two
more than words to show you feel that your love for me is real
what would you say if i look those words away
then you couldn't make things new just by saying i love you

now that i've tried to talk to you and make you understand
all that you have to do is close your eyes and just reach out your hands
and touch me hold me close don't ever let me go
more than words
is all i ever need you to show
then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
cos i'd already know

9:15 PM
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Thursday, June 12, 2003

hey guys...
i'm feeling so busted. i've gotta 57 for my chinese average...plus i actually failed the letter writing...aint that funny? ha ha ha. it is so pathetic. so so soooo pathetic. nvm...and the worst thing is that. i don't even feel a pang of guilt/remorse/hurt when i got the paper. i try hard to squeeze them all out, but its apparent that these feelings were never induced, were absent in the very first place! so now can i force something that's non-existent out? call that shittified? yes!
gee.....lols okokay.cheery!
i have so much undone homework, i just need to go out and mug with stupid idiots like munmun n tungu haha....i hope that will work. i hope that will make me work, i mean. (-.-)

9:54 PM
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Tuesday, June 10, 2003

tomorrow's physics practical and you know what? tomorrow's tomorrow.
i live. for. today.



-hugs me- (n_n)

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Thursday, May 29, 2003

rich orange faded into a golden yellow. glass bottle flower. my fairydust!


i love my sunflower-in-a-bottle... -hugs bottle-
oh tomorrow's the dreaded chinese mocks.....whtat the hell......sure flung...damn!!!! lols...i'm super happy today. ut was damn happy to see my letters...the stuff which i kinda worked on pretty attentively with a hopeful heart that ut will cherish it lots! you idiot...hahas....nice converstation we had today eh? clear things up a bit...as for the pnj stuff....i think i'l leave it allow for time being...but haha! wish pat good luck. XD
and to everyone...cheery!!!! go on mugging!!!! hahs......luckz fer ya middys!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, May 28, 2003

i jus ruined dat sunflower!!!! okay. i kept the petals for remembrance. really. drops of sun rays! each on of them....damn sweet! they look kinda extremely cute and candy-sweet in that lil. glass. haha! ooooooo...wadevaaaa????

9:40 PM
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people, please, leave a sign...say...a tiny lil. scratch and scribble in my guestbook just to know that you've been here! lols...i'm taking the attendance! -hees-

9:22 PM
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*waves hi to jade.*
hey there! this is not my real private blog..as in...in terms of the content. but..hey...yeah! the layout is kinda a replica? hehes...okok.
enough of such crap.
good luck for all who are still "midding"!

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